Walking, following my shadow in front of me,
so capable of holding my dream in your dark complexion, a friend that walks steadily through the line ‘tween what is real and what is dream.
The two kiss,
like an explosion of light
from that one painted street lamp.
What is seeing when it rips the structure asunder piece by piece till what you thought was solitary and enduring becomes nothing more then water flowing?
So like fantasy is this life I breathe,
where does one end and the other begin,
the line shrinks from distinction.
Lost at sea in both the real and fantasy, overlaying my beloved notions of Beauty upon the seen.
I attempt at wholeness, to wholly see another without my ideas strangling them.
Stand back you defenders, allow for the balance. So hard it is to walk with your head in the clouds as your feet take root in the softening ground. I look to where the two meet and think on the space between my shadow, a dream, and my feet, the concrete.
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I Woke Up Stained
I woke up stained.
I don’t know when it happened
Maybe it was the recent news
Maybe the cold callous city streets
Maybe the steel structure that divides us
Like that steel I am tarnished
My shine is gone unpolished
I woke up tarnished.
I had a silver shine faded away
Maybe my heart glimmers with dreams of renewal
Maybe there is golden age of true justice and sacred peace
Maybe people are starting to change
Like those people I have changed
My heart is gone stained
Homage to the Spanish Armada
On this daylight evening
let’s build something truly absurd
a plank of fog
a mast of peg leg
and skull cannonball
the feeble Galleon sinking
we’ll shoot it past the moon to shine darkly
through the past darkly
Oh morning star of ineptness
orbiting a vagrant path
with a ship of fools
on the day of the dead rising
The one trick pony with fallen rider
leads the procession stumblebum
Put on your mask
your gesture of stupidity
with a drunken fleet of barflies
the army of boozehounds howling
defeated by nature and circumstance
and sixteen eccentric toreadors
prancing on a dead man’s chest
A fiesta with lethal injection
with its silver armor smashed by rocks and wind
the sirens sweetly sing:
Oh Titanic,
Oh XX Valdez,
Oh Challenger, etc., etc.,
Vanity Oh Vanity
how the mighty have fallen
see how they run amok.
Boreas
By Devin Hamilton
The infiltrating cold begs my silence
It means to steal my pink flesh
Display my skeleton
Like the naked branches
Collecting icicles
Abolishing comfort
In favor of survival
Now I ride the pendulum
Between ceremonious snowfalls
Silently layering atop the earth
And enraged blizzards
Slapping my cheeks red
Winter’s voice
An indomitable wind,
howls through the shutters
of the house
‘My love is a lesson,’
She screams
‘But you treat it as an attack.’
Manzanita Park
By Clare Flanagan
How did I arrive here
from where I came —
the tree limbs, the cold lodestone rock
that pulled me as a child, called to ascend
til the branches bent? I named
every hoof-beaten path
in the backyard woods, stalking birds
& berries through the dusk hours, grown voices tearing
through the box-elders, calling out
to me. I labeled maps
in thin script, hidden still
in a Midwestern basement, slipped
between half-
finished canvases and pipes
exposed. My blood ran
with the knowledge
that I would become someone. So how
did those winding trail-lines
take me here, where I feel
I have forgotten all intention? It’s a nice patch
of grass, sun-saturated. They ringed it
with buildings, named it
for the small apple trees, drought-
stunted, frozen somehow
in girlhood. In their thin shade
I read the same sentences
over and again. I am learning
how memories are encoded – traces, sketched
in neural pencil, brain-buried,
smudged bolder when they’re called
to the surface. Or perhaps
they leave the hippocampal bowels, float finchlike
to the cortical branches, sing clear
and independent of time. I think of this
as I gaze through the twig-fissures
at the California sky, sift
through decade-old networks –
buckthorn-woven, strung
with cattails, near-embalmed dreams
of being President, or
a vigilante queen. These days
I want less for myself. Before I leave here, before
I read the chapter on forgetting,
I think I’ll become Ophelia –
sink small under the lush square
of manicured grass, the green pool
deflecting voices that say
come back. Flesh
falling away like a wet dress, bone exposed
as the stark backyard granite, the boulder
ringed with tiger-lilies. How I
would strive, thin-armed, to pull my weight
to the rock’s crown, slip
down. How
I would try again.
Accidentals
By Clare Flanagan
From age twelve & onward I was warned
about them – notelong departures
from the prevailing key, hanging stealthy
between staff lines, barely heralded
by some arcane mark. Accidentals
stretched my knuckles to gristle
over stiff-sprung valves, derailed
whole melodies, hammered breath from me
til the true sound came into being. It’s been years
since I last read music, but today
on the commuter trail behind the Knollwood
Super Target with its wayward shopping carts
like loose cattle & empty apartments
metastasizing by the highway, those were the kind
of notes tearing through me –
teasing unready fingers
on the left handbrake, a rough reflex
half a beat behind. I’d seen the car
too late, but I was wheeling, coming in
sun-blind and hot, and in a single slow moment
I spiraled forward, a body-nautilus, back wheel rising
over wordless mouth. Curled before the hatchback
that stopped feet short of me, too-long shoelaces tangled
in the stilled pedals, I saw open skin hash-marking
my elbows and knees, road-carved sharps
across a measure of skin –
bloody blue-notes like the ones
I used to pencil in, meaning
don’t make that same mistake
you keep making. Even as I took
the hand of a stranger, who helped lift me back
to the world, the only word I could say
was sorry. But now, my legs being
less pavement-shaken, I want to examine
these bruises, let water sting the gravel
from the wounds. I want an ablution, a blessing
for white knuckles grasping
the wrong brake. I want to hear
the wrong note in the right place, a divine slip
from the key of speed, my still face feet
from the short-stopped vehicle, the voiceless
two-ton warning that all this momentum
is temporary. What I want most now
is to learn the best and most difficult song —
the chord that sets the wheels spinning again,
rate regardless, the one sung in gratitude
for being given one more mile
to fly forward, another day
to fall.
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